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There « Pray For The Lamberths — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 10:07:07 +0000

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angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:42:25 +0000

Nikki, Mark did not own a dirt bike. He was at an event where you can test ride the 2009 dirt bikes for a couple hours.
Angie

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angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:40:27 +0000

Cindi,
The answer is I don’t know if I’m going to move forward with the adoption. Nolan is hoping so. And so am I. But it’s a difficult decision and I’m going to need some time still before I can decide. I’ll post on it one day when I have more clarity on that one.
Thanks, Angie

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angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:38:43 +0000

Hi Nancy, I appreciate you reading the blog. You are welcome here and are definitely NOT invading. Angie

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angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:36:07 +0000

Jessica, Thanks for your comments and for reading the blog so much. Tough questions but I am glad to try to answer them.
1) Death of a loved one as one of your greatest fears- how do you deal with it? Well, so far I don’t know. Maybe in time I will look back and say I did this or that. For me as petty as it sounds I’ve stayed really busy. I don’t want to slow down, definitely not stop. When I do reality hits pretty hard. That’s what I’m doing. But the rest must be God. I am weak. Worn out. But I’m able to go. I have family around and friends. Nolan is such an incredible comfort even though it really should be the other way around. To deal with the realization of Mark no longer being in the world though is a weight that I’m not even beginning to carry. It’s like I’m dealing with the loss of his roles in my life in so many ways. And kind of like I’m dealing with those things. You know like he’s not here to hang out with, talk with, he’s not mowing the lawn, we aren’t having dinner together, he’s not the warm body next to me in bed. I’m dealing with those roles. But not yet to the point where I’m dealing with the absence of Mark. Don’t know if that makes sense. I’m not making it sound easy I know. I don’t want to cause you to fear more. But there’s no way around the harsh reality of it. What I do have though is that hope that I know where he is, and that’s where I’ll be at one day. (Wow, a very long winded answer. Sorry)
2) Have you read any books that have been particularly helpful? Yes I have read several grief books which have helped but it’s all a blur right now. Most recently I read Greg Laurie’s book that he wrote after losing his son. Most helpful for me though was the book of Job in the Bible. Really gives perspective.
3) What types of help/comments have been most meaningful? Wow this is a hard one because people helped in SO many ways. I really don’t want to minimize anything. This will be a post this week.
4) Does losing Mark make me fear death less? Yes in a way. It’s like my grip on this world is lessened. But I have a little guy that depends on me so in that way no. But I am afraid of what our relationship will be and how it will change in heaven if that makes any sense. Strange to think that the marriage relationship is no longer the same.
I appreciate your questions.
Thanks, Angie

By: angielamberth

angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:13:16 +0000

Kir,
I will blog how Mark and I met (there’s a bit of it under “A Wonderful Love”) and got together this week. That will be a fun, maybe difficult, one.
Thanks, Angie

By: angielamberth

angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:08:32 +0000

Michelle,
School has been a challenge this year. Homeschooling is not easy! I’m not cut out for it. Especially right now it’s hard for me to focus let alone get Nolan to. So that being said the decision to homeschool was a great one. My friend Chelsea was a tremendous help and her boys and Nolan have really hit it off. I couldn’t have asked for anything better than the time Nolan and I have had together. I think it’s made a huge difference for him emotionally. He’s just not anxious like he was. And I just feel like I know him so much better because I can see him throughout the day.
But next school year I am planning to enroll him in traditional school. At that point I may return to school or get a part time job. Just what will keep me occupied while Nolan is in school. I had returned to work. It was actually easier on me than it was on Nolan at the time. Then I took some time off but decided that I would need to be off with him through the summer. My employer couldn’t give me that much of a leave, so I resigned. It was a good job and not an easy decision. Of course now that it’s just me financially it was a scary decision, but it has worked out well.
Specific prayer requests: Self control- I feel like I am not thinking of or doing the things that I intend to. Patience- With Nolan while we wrap up the school year. Wisdom- To know which way is up and which is down.
Thank you! Angie

By: angielamberth

angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:57:36 +0000

Kim,
I will probably blog one day about the adoption. For now, the answer is I don’t know. We were very close to adopting, just waiting for a call telling us they had a little girl for us. Because we were expecting the call we decided not to go away for our anniversary in December thinking placement would be by the end of the year. Adopting is a decision to be made a bit later down the road for me. Nolan is eagerly awaiting the answer to that one. He hopes for a sibling.
Angie

By: Justin and Erin McDonald

Justin and Erin McDonald — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:51:59 +0000

thanks for the note! I am supper impressed! that makes me feel really good knowing that you are getting something out of this blog too! It’s 4AM there I am going to pray for you right now! God Bless

By: angielamberth

angielamberth — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:51:21 +0000

Sarah- Thanks. I haven’t read The Shack yet, but it is one of many books that I intend to. I hear that it’s a great book and I’m looking forward to reading it sometime.
-Angie